I find it so hard to just be in my brain and be happy with it. I so often am thinking I can be more like this person or that mom, or wondering, if I just knew how they thought then I could do what they do..ya know? In a good way I mean. I am looking at these strong women in my life and seeing their character and the fruits of their labor (I think:) and I am inspired. But often I do wonder if I think about them too much. I can't be them, nor do I want to be, so why can't I stay more focused on my brain and this is just how I am? I think....a lot! but why am I viewing that as a negative? This is how I am growing. Everyday I am so acutely aware of what I am doing and trying to keep my heart in check regarding the motivations behind what I do and then also leading the way for the kiddies and teaching them about their hearts! Maybe that's why my brain never stops? What started me onto this tonight was technology and the kids getting an ipod to share. It is mainly for our studies as we listen to audio books for some classes and need to get more ( I will explain why another time). I am so acutely aware of what goes in them comes out. If we dump crap into their heads it comes out and if we pour good things in....it comes out (generally speaking here). What they do watch matters! What they do listen to matters! What they do see matters! All of it has an impact..good or bad.....and I want to fill them up with good things and keep their hearts on the things that are good...to be continued....
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